Everyday as i walk anywhere in school where there are guys, there's a big chance i get teased.
But every day as i go up those stairs to my class, every week without fail, at least once i will get teased as i go up those stairs; be it racist remarks or eve-teasing.
Teased because I'm a Chinese, teased because I'm a girl, Teased because i don't wear tudung.
every week it accumulates...
Walk to anywhere in school..and i would be exposing myself to these teasings, even walking out of school when school's over. Wherever there are guys, there would be some sort of teasing happening.
The only safe ground for me is in class, or in the library.
I can't do anything because it's not only 1 boy but it's somewhat like an acceptable practice in this school that I'm in. Many guys do it all the time. A Malay Kampung thing i guess...
I'm a very sensitive girl, outside i may seem OK but inside I'm hurt, angry and i feel disgusted by their words.
Yesterday as i walked up to class, the guys at the stairs teased me...i was filled with anger, i wanted to punch dat fellow, i wanted to show that I'm not someone you can mess around with.
my hands was ready, just waiting for d command from me... my hand was half way going up ... den i realize just in time dat i am a Christian.. i will bring down Christ's name.
I wished i did not convert, i wished i was still a Buddhist cause then i would just bash up that guy!
What happened to that MFoong who was aggressive? Where is the girl who kicked a boy on the leg because her friend was teased in SKBB? Where is the girl who fought with a guy outside of SMKBB just because he teased her friend? What happened to the girl who aggressively pushed a guy at HCC for teasing her friend?
I cry myself to sleep... The One Above sent me here, i don't know WHY! Is this a test/trial? Is this a training ground to toughen me up? Is this a place to learn patience, self-control and AGAPE?