Working Maturity Mindset
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Working maturity and the expectations that comes with each seniority level.
The *expectations or working maturity in working life*as explained to m...
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Yes, every tale has more than 1 side of the story...I'm not GOD so I'm not everywhere nor am I all-knowing.
This is just my side of the story based on my understanding!
Hard. I din know BM STPM paper, you must know/memorise tulisan Jawi. Teacher didn't teach or say anything about this also! SO, all the people who know Jawi writting got 1 question correct for free! How about all the non-Muslims who dono Jawi writing? It's crazy. I didn't even know Jawi writing was in our syllabus! I was like...WHAT THE!!!!!!
The paper was hard! The paper was crazy. The only ones i could do was all the Penyelesaian Masalah...haha.
Tomorrow's paper is my last paper. BM...objective too.
I don't understand why the Ketua Pengawas was discriminating! When I wanna keluar awal, she said I cannot take the question paper out cause the paper is sulit until the exam is over. But when my other classmates go out early, she let them take the question paper ok!
Just because I'm chinese so I kena tahan from taking the paper out? This is unfair la wei!
Paper was hard. But i managed to write all the stupid rationalizing I could come up with. Of all the paper that I crap, this was the worst and crappiest crapping. I know the answer wrong also I just write so that my paper won't be blank. Crazy hard wei! I finished one hour earlier and left the hall at 10 am. Sounds like a crazy kamikaze writing all the rubbish I came up with!
Macro economy paper today. 2pm to 5pm I tried to cram my head yesterday but my concentration level was like not working, i just couldn't focus.
Today the paper was do-able la, and I did an extra question and was left with 20 minutes extra. I was a bit surprised la cause my micro economy paper had not enough time ma, so I rush for macro la. I was also a bit surprised that I didn't do any graph...haha.
Macro had 4 sections... Section A: objective, -eenie meenie mynie more- 30 tough questions. Only 12 questions was done confidently.
section B: I managed all 5 questions. Some with logic and some with facts and most with stuffs which were not in the syllabus...LOL
Section C: I did the 2 question which did not involve graphs
Section D: suppose to do 2 questions but i did 3 cause I didn't know which one I can score the best...hehe.
Sejarah 2= Sejarah Malaysia, Asia Tenggara, Asia Selatan, dan Asia Timur 8 am to 11 am
Ekonomi paper 1 = Microeconomy 2 pm to 5 pm
Yesterday I read sejarah so much but didn't touch economy at all. Today's Sejarah paper was tough la...Just crap all I could insert..haha.
Microeconomy was crazy loh. Section A, B , C and D. Section A was objective la...so ok la. Section B was ok...I did all 5 questions. Section C was do-able. I did all 2 questions Section D was crazy...I didn't manage to complete both questions. The graph was time consuming and not even half done. Not enough time loh...
I sat for 2 papers today. Bm 2= essay, rumusan, alih bahasa, cari kesalahan bahasa 8am to 11am
PP 1 2pm to 5pm
BM paper 2........after I got into the hall and looked at the questions. I just wanted to walk out of the hall. But I stared at the paper for some time and then attempted the cari kesalahan and rumusan then I came back and wrote rubbish for the essay and finally I did the alih bahasa. I had 10 minutes to spare...waited for time to quickly tick away.
Pengurusan Perniagaan 1...I look at the questions and then prepared to sleep but then my conscience kept telling me not to give up so I die die also just crap all the best that I could. Finish and left with one more hour so I did an extra question and then got 30 minutes more. I left class early!
2pm to 5pm...3hours Sejarah 1 = Sejarah Dunia and Sejarah Islam.
I read a lot yesterday. Today after I woke up, I tried reading more but I keep falling asleep. Once again I felt like not taking the paper. I seriously don't know what's wrong with me.
Okies, the paper was a shocker! Nothing I studied came out...hahaha. So, I looked at the clock and stared a few minute then I considered all the question and analyzed which one I can talk crap the most. It was really hard la. Squeezing my brains of any rubbish I could include in the 4 essay questions.
By God's grace I managed to not leave the papers blank...haha.
The man examiner with glasses which have thick black frames is really scary. He look at me, I look at him, he look at me, I look at him...haha, he might think I'm so suspicious and think that I copied or let people copy....haha, I wouldn't be surprised if he really suspends my results. He even talked to the main examiner and pointed to me with his finger and that main examiner looked at me.
My first paper-Pengajian Am 2 was much better than I anticipated la. I woke up feeling so low and drag myself to school. At school, I felt like just going back home and skipping the paper. I don't know why I felt that way. I never felt that way before in my life...haha, really feels weird! But I didn't do that la, it would be a waste of time and effort in Form 6 loh. I sat in the classroom just worrying...then when we begin, the questions were do-able la..but every time the examiner stood next to me, i would panic and lose the thread of ideas..haha. I think overall I can pass la :P
There was construction working noise and it was disturbing. Besides that, announcement to ask the STPM students to get into class was really killing me. I couldn't concentrate and of cause, the thread of ideas also stopped there for a while. The Muslim prayer shouting on the P.A. system during the STPM paper was reallly annoying and gave me headache. The school is really not a good environment for doing examination.
My teachers always said students don't have enough time to finish PA paper 2. But I managed to complete it with about 10 minutes to spare.
The essay part was ok but i am not sure if my answers are in the schema or not...haha. I was happy that at least I got points and included some rubbish on dasar PIP (IKS) and Tun Abdullah promoting pertanian and some science terms...haha.
I don't know why I couldn't come up with anything for nearly all the first option of Section A, B and C. Section A, B and C, when I looked at the first option, I went blank...haha. So I did the second option la.
For section D, I only prepared for pie chart but there was no pie chart question and I started to panic. Then I read the questions la. The first option had a shorter title and I remember is % perubahan means the one we did during the STPM WPKL TRIALS :) Yay!
For Section E, both also was jadual. well, the first option had lesser years to compare so I did the first option..haha. I managed to include the 1998 kegawatan ekonomi serantau and Tun Mahathir pegging RM3.80 to USD1 :)
I'm really not sure if I menjawab kehendak soalan but I'm satisfied that I didn't leave anything blank :)
I don't know why I really am surprised that my current school teachers are different. They encourage us to copy, they even teach us how to copy in STPM. They keep saying, JANGAN KEDEKUT ILMU, JANGAN SYOK SENDIRI MENJAWAB STPM.
It's really a cultural shock...teachers encouraging cheating in STPM. It really blows my mind! They tell us to write keywords in dark pen on extra paper or draw pictures and put the paper on the side of the table and then later crumple the paper and throw it.
These advises and "words of wisdom" coming from teachers where the school has prayers recital every morning, bacaan Ayat Yasin every thursday for 40 minutes, recite bacaan doa before every lesson starts, reading the whole Al-Quran activity and all those agama camps and doa selamat and ceramahs on Islam and all that religious stuffs.
To tell you the truth, I really wonder if all their religious actions are forced and just traditions-->Everything outer only but nothing happening internally. I am really appalled.
I'm so sorry if you feel offended, But this is really something that I cannot comprehend.
Tues was the last day of school Wed was the official day of the start of STPM but my first paper is on MON(23rd nov)...because my subjects are not on this wed nor thurs. There are no STPM subjects/papers on FRI.
thurs and fri(today) we went to school for extra class. Economy and History. I'm nervous, about 2 more days and then My first STPM will start...
Last week was crazy... Mr Nanda gave extra class on Saturday and Sunday. 8.30am to about 4pm. So full of notes and past year questions...most of the time, I was struggling to follow his pace...I'm a quite slow learner.
Today we changed class and arranged class for STPM. There was still studies too. After class, the upper 6 students had a small "jamuan"..."Doa Selamat"...Started by prayer then followed by Speeches by a few student rep and then speech by Teacher rep and then say Grace and then feast.
After the feast, ask for forgiveness and blessing. Salam with teachers and say sorry. They gave last words...All the girls cried except me. AFter that, the preuniversity students went around "salam-ing" and asking for forgiveness. We had to wash our own plates and cups initially but in the end only a few girls did the washing.
A rainy day today-morning, and evening. The rain was like cats and dogs so much that Mr Nanda had to compete with the rain to teach us...LOL.
I thank God it wasn't raining like that during MUET listening...haha.
Tomorrow is our last day in school.
Wednesday is where Spm and STPM officially starts but my first paper starts next Monday.
OKi, now I'm gonna blog about my Malaysian University English Test(MUET) which was today. 3 papers almost back to back. The Day started with us assembling in the hall and our MUET teacher-->Ms Wong lectured us or gave us last minute remember-to-do things... I was like "Let's get this done and over with as soon as possible! Come on la teacher, morning morning already give lecture ar?" Feeling so frustrated why time went by so slow. The interval between each paper was 30 minutes.
Then our first paper was 45 objective questions-->Reading component. 26 questions out of 45 questions I was not too sure of and I re-check my paper and spotted a wrong answer...just as I was about to change it, the examiner took my paper away :'(
So worried and frustrated. I wanted everything to end soon. We had 30 minutes interval but in reality only a 20 min rest cause must be in the hall 10 min before the paper starts. People were revising and chatting but I was so restless and stressed. I wanted to run or do some physical exercise, I couldn't stand sitting on the chair so I left my friends and went walking around the block and walked up and down the stairs too...
The next paper came...Writing component! I have always hated report writing and in school we always practiced 2 or 3 stimulus but todays paper was only one stimulus. So I dreaded it all the more and just wrote rubbish. However, Question 2 was a fun one to do as it was an open essay. "People commit crime for selfish reasons. Discuss. You should write at least 350 words" I really enjoyed writing this essay that I wrote at least 500 words..LOL I was kinda lost as no instruction was given by the invigilator...Can I begin? What to write on the "Tahun" and where to write the question number...and things like that, so I just used some common sense and did what I thought was correct...lalala, in my own world.
After the exam, I realised that my answer was not as normal people would answer so I got scared...I just pray and hope that I won't get a closed-minded examiner. Please don't let it be a rural malay examiner. Let me have an open minded examiner. Please, please, please. Worried my time away.
Our last and final paper--> Listening. Part 2 and 3 was tough especially the final 2 questions. It was funny that as we were a bit disturbed by the other class's radio. My class started a bit late because we had to wait for a few candidates who were still eating...LOL-->Not enough break time :P When our class started late but the other classes went punctually. So, during our minute of writing answer, we could hear a bit on what's going to come next...but sometimes it was hard when their radio clash with ours, where we had to really focus and block out the other classes' radio in order to pay attention to our radio.
After the Listening paper, we were given a "feedback slip" to fill up. I wrote "question 2 is an open question so i hope that the examiners are open minded too. It's good to finish all 3 papers in one day and so I hope we can get back our results earlier"
(Yesterday the invigilators came to school to check the classes and the radio. One of the radio was so soft so I protested. Then the invigilator said, "Bring a speaker la" LOL I really brought a speaker today, I think Room 3 used my speakers. As the last paper finished, an invigilator called me "Ms Hilda"...I felt strange. My name on the MUET paper was HEW MUN FOONG and I don't recall telling her my name. Maybe she saw my name tag or maybe She did indeed know me...I felt like she looked like someone I know-->Ms Runa Wan from SUFES but I seriously doubt that it's Ms Runa Wan.)
Overall, the paper was okay, the invigilators were nice people but they were not clear and didn't give out instructions, therefore useless invigilators! I seriously think the interval between each paper was too short...Candidates have no time for brunch or break or to eat and etc. But it was indeed a very stressful day for me...the time was a mental torture for me. XP
Thus I end here. I'm aiming for a band 3 or 4. Band 5 is possible but I don't want to aim too high as I know that my English is not so good. Thankfully MUET is finally over!
Drama, drama, drama...that's what happened today at school. 2 of my good friends in school who were best friends were not on talking terms today. Zizah and Pui Yee...I'm much closer to Zizah because we used to go to the same ex-secondary school. Zizah sits in between me and Pui Yee.
It was really a weird situation when 2 best friends who sit next to each other, don't talk to each other.I don't know whether to laugh or to show sympathy...whatever it was, it wasn't a nice situation at all.
During the second recess when Zizah went out of class, I took this opportunity to ask Pui Yee what had happened cause I knew that Zizah would tell me later. I gotta know Pui Yee's side before I hear Zizah's side cause if I hear Zizah's side first then I would be a bit bias.
Tears from Pui Yee's eyes and her side of the story. Then Zizah came and they quarrel, each telling their side.The truth was out but it was quite hard to believe though...LOL. It was a matter of Trust--> Who do you trust? Your best friend or a new found friend? Did your friend breach your trust or was your new friend "fishing"? (Fishing= simply say-->want to find out something, so they pretend they know... & you end up exposing it yourself...Most cops/police use this tactic)
Then after the short "sharing", Zizah went out, hurt that Pui Yee rather trust someone else. Then Pui Yee said, "Hilda, you believe her or not?" I replied, "It's hard to say because the other girl and Zizah are friends and there is a possibility but I trust my friend more than others loh" Pui Yee said, "I don't believe loh. If you what will you do?" I said," If me, I rather trust my good friend than someone else la." Then Pui Yee said, "If it's real, your close friend break your trust?" I replied,"If me, my good friend betray me...err, 1st time I let go, 2nd time I let go, 3rd time no more already. I mean I won't break the friendship because of a small thing or two. You fooled me once shame on you,YOu fooled me twice shame on me! 3rd time is melampau already la"
Gave her some time to think. I went to Zizah and reported status: Pui Yee doesn't really believe you.
Back to class. Pui Yee pulled me to the back and asked me something about Zizah and I answered truthfully. Then Pui Yee went out to Zizah and I don't know what happened there. When they both came back in, both of them with teary eyes and sniffing so I said, "Woah, I didn't know you girls had a terrible flu..." LOL
During economy class, Wani W came into class with teary eyes and sniffing too...totally a diff case but sorta like the same reaction la. Zizah said to me, "Today so many people got FLU."
Yeah, so neways at least the day ended with both my good friends as normal like nothing happened...Turns out that the part of Pui Yee and Zizah outside the class...there was a process of apologizing and mending relationship and everything became normal :)
Wasn't that a crazy drama...the class of Upper 6 Aspirasi!
the vibes are all negative towards me n Pui Yee. my class hates it whenever me or Pui Yee ask teachers questions. Hey! If you don't understand, you ask question la right? Or if you're in doubt, you question teacher too right? Yeah, that's what we( Pui Yee and I) do la!
Well, the class in majority(not everyone in class but the majority gang)-->they hate it whenever me or Pui Yee ask Teacher questions.
Especially Niesa...she will say "Dah mula la tu!" or "Tak payah la" and stuffs like that.
Pui Yee ask questions because she doesn't understand la but I question teachers because I am not a person who Blindly Agrees with everything teacher says "just because someone in authority/higher rank/teacher SAYS SO!" I question because I disagree...
Ks, this post is not so much about who ask what. But it's about attitudes...mine, Asians, teachers and classmates (excluding Pui Yee,Praveen, Hazizah and a handful of neutral people). All Negative! My school/class is not a healthy nor conducive place...The class mates also contribute a lot to this...And with this type of classmates, you people ask me WHY don't I want to go for Graduation? GO, FIGURE YOURSELF! Waste of $, waste of time, waste of effort, waste of every breath just to be with you people...I'm not referring to the minority gang but to the majority gang of 6 Aspirasi class 2009 of SMK Sri Pantai. THIS is the ASIAN culture...to ask question is rude, bad and disrespectful. When one questions the teacher...it's not acceptable. Teachers are perceived as GOD! WHATEVER comes out from their mouth is considered as the TRUTH. Teachers are always RIGHT/CORRECT! IT is NOT QUESTIONABLE! I pay attention to words and I'm not a silly sheep who just stupidly agree to whatever crap/rubbish/lies/wrong teachings that come out of teachers.
I cannot accept things by the justification of "you must agree JUST BECAUSE TEACHER SAID SO!"
Well, There was lectures today... History paper 1 and paper 2. The Lower 6 also joined us and about 15 upper 6 students from SMK Desa Taman Tun Hussien Onn came too...
yeah, as stated. Today was the Persatuan Tingkatan 6(PERTINA).
I was at the library around 1pm...waiting for 3pm la...I finish reading 9 BM newspaper on the rack. In 3-4 newspaper there was something about rugby :) Mostly about Sabah aka Borneo &s game which would be coming up soon. I also saw news about IPT(Institut Pengajian Tinggi) told to promote sports :) Yeah! Me Likey!
The event was suppose to start at 3pm la. Anyway it started at 4pm...then there was speeches and then token of appreciations...makan started at 5pm and the whole thing ended about 6pm la...
It was the first time Pui Yee, Praveen and I sang in a group of audience...LOL We were all frogs...LOL. But the other Form 6 students were very supportive and it was fun la :) we enjoyed ourselves very much.
We had loads of fun singing West Life songs cause it was almost the only English songs available.
BTW: Yesterday was our BM teacher aka Bonda's birthday feast...
Tomorrow is the Pengajian Am seminar...10am to about 12.30pm...then we would be going to Wani Wahab's open house...LOL
Sunday pula...My class is once again pledged into Mr Nanda's extra classes....
today was the MUET(Malaysian University English Test) speaking component la...LOL went to school, Ms Chung brief us about where to go and Ms Wong ask us to pray. Then we went up to the quarantine room which is the library. Briefing and check IC. I was in the first group and as candidate C. Then we took the exam in the SAL room(Self Assessment Learning)
the question was something about which one affects family reputation most? a) behavior of family members b) income of family members c) education level of family members d) occupation of family members
Task A is individual: read question and to prepare and present in 2 minutes I got not enough points...Just one point and 2 examples...Introduction I did was to waste time then I went to my point with a lot of umm, and ahhs. I also spoke too fast and I ended abruptly as I really didn't have enough points la...aiyo. Pui Yee's points were stronger than mine but she spoke a bit too soft for task A.
Task B is group discussion: prepare and 10 minutes to discuss Neways the group discussion seemed like it was just me and Pui Yee only...Seemed like both of us was monopolizing...haiz. Niesa and Eius wasn't talking, when we open the discussion Niesa and Eius was like err, and just said "I support candidate C" or "I agree with candidate C"...I was getting frustrated. Time went on and I think we ended after 10 minutes...crazy la.
Haiyo...so teruk la. BTW: I really don't understand why the MUET results takes so long to come back...a few months...crazy la.
today was the "Majlis Anugerah Kecemerlangan Kokurikulum Smk Sri Pantai".
The audiences were form 4, form 5, lower 6 and upper 6 students.
There were curricular awards for teachers as well.
Mr Muhammad is not really liked by most of us... He went up to the stage twice and a very surprising thing happened. OH my, it was crazy!
It started with the normal cheer which turned into a BIG LOUD "boooo"
Oh, You should have been there! I tell you it was crazy bold and funny! Not once but TWICE some more. Then only we realized that not only the seniors don't like him but our "juniors" also didn't like him.
This incident is either FREEDOM OF EXPRESSIONS or BOLDNESS or HATRED or KAMPUNG SCHOOL la....LOL
according to sources, this is the first time SMK Sri Pantai students BOO-ed a teacher and during a formal function some more...Fuyoh! Two times some more!
Yeah, the GOvernment said that Friday is a holiday for all schools :) Yay! some teachers gave us ang paos...I wasn't expecting that... As another day of no studies, we just slept, took pictures, listen to songs and I manage to read all-->6 malay newspaper which were in the Library-->Old ones of cause. Oh ya, actually we studied a bit for BM...
Holiday mood, woohoo. This is the first real holiday I got this year! NO HOMEWORK nor Assignment, NO EXTRA CLASS AND NOTHING BUT A SUPER REAL HOLIDAY-->just the way Holidays are meant to be... A hearty thank you to the Government for putting the STPM Trials to end last week, so now I FiNaLLy got a REAL and PURE holiday! yeah! One Week of nothing-to-do-with-school!
Friday holiday and One WHOLE week of pure holiday! What a bliss of pure joy ^^
I said I don't want to go for graduation..then teacher said I have to pay RM 2 if I want to get my certificates. What rubbish was that? If I go graduation must pay RM50 and I get school Certs but if I don't want to go for graduation then I must pay RM2 for Certs... I didn't know school Certificates cost money and is charging worse than Ah Long's...CRazy. No way am I going to "Buy aka BRIBE" for some lousy school cert which says that I completed Form 6. It's really a SILLY POLICY.
Last day of trials today! Pengajian perniagaan paper 2 was horrible. I couldn't do much so I just slept the whole day :( Silly Mun! Muet Listening went horrible as well, and I think I might have gone off tangent for Muet Writing...hAIz
teacher said we'll get back some of our results back before Raya...
Schooling everyday...today was Economy class from 8am-11am then was break and we suppose to have Pengajian Am class at 12pm...While waiting for PA teacher to come, the girls were playing motorbike...some learning how to ride, some taking others for a ride...
Secretly I wanted to learn also, but I was shy, so I just watched them. I was at the side of the block and I heard a motorcycle going fast and I heard some girls shouting, so I ran to the noise...the girls were shouting "Zulaikha" and all of them were running to one place. I ran along...I saw Zulaikha under the motorcycle. People were shouting, screaming, crying, panicking and calling for help, some was too shocked and stood paralysed, Tearing eyes...CHAOS Some people carried the motorbike off her. The motorbike was ruined. I saw Zulaikha's legs in the drain with some toes injured, her head senget and her face twitching like spasm...Her forehead was swollen badly, and she didn't make a sound, but she was still breathing. It was a painful, awful sight to see your friend, your form mate, your class mate like that.
Auni's car was the nearest, so some people carried Zulaikha to the car and they drove off to the University Hospital. Mr Jamil followed them behind by his car. Ismail(Wani Wahab's BF) was blaming Wani Wahab because the motorbike is Wani Wahab's motorbike... Wani W cried for her friend, for her bike, for the blame and the guilt.
Wani W said "I told Zulaikha not to go on my motorbike"
Akhmar said "Zulaikha said she wanted to try so I let her, When I offer to go with her, Zulaikha said 'no need' so I thought Zulaikha knew how to ride. I told Zulaikha to press the break but Zulaikha panic and tekan the minyak even more...the motorbike went speeding, Zulaikha loss control, her head hit the tree and her slippers flew off"
Various sources: A few others ran to stop the motorbike when it went out of control but the bike was too fast. Zulaikha's head hit the tree, the wall and a pasu.
Wani W's dad came to school angrily. He gave Wani w until 3pm to fix her bike. He just only spent money to fix all the motorbike in his household...He said the person who rode the bike should pay for the damages. He rode off angry...
Kesian Wani W and Zulaikha, both also in a tight situation...We chipped in some money to help Wani w with her motorbike...
A few times I tried to assemble the girls to pray for Zulaikha but they ignored me...(I remember in RBS[Residential Bible School] when Evelyn was sent to the hospital, We made a circle and prayed for Evelyn)
Somehow the girls rather blame each other, stand in shock, relate what happen, cry and do other things than to go to their god...I was like "There's nothing more that we can do than to pray to God and ask Him to protect Zulaikha especially that nothing happens to her head or ability to think, react and ect "
It almost seem like they rather go to their God last, when there seem no hope and no one to turn to...Why don't they put God first? Don't they believe in HIS Almightyness? They always laungkan azan that they are witnesses that god is almighty and N.Muhammad is god's prophet...Their behaviour doesn't show that they are really WITNESSES(saksi) of god's almightyness...
Action speaks louder than words... So yeah, PA class cancelled... BTW: the moral of this life situation is...HELMET is important! If Zulaikha at least wore a helmet, the impact wouldn't be that hard...
Zulaikha, Hope you get well soon and Hope that your head is ok...
p/s: It could have been me! Another moral I learnt: Don't learn motorcycling illegally!
Tomorrow marks the start of our one week of school holiday due to our country's independence (I think) and tomorrow also marks the start of the fasting for our fellow Muslim friends...
A week of holiday? 22nd August to 31st August...Not really a holiday for the students of Upper 6 Aspiration class of SMK SRI PANTAI. All the Sundays are quite usual that we have Mr Nanda's economy class but now even our "holiday" is snatched away. Sunday to Friday 9am to about 1 pm is a "school day" for us...Our MUET(Malaysia University English Test) teacher Ms Wong also plans to do extra class on Thursday and Friday 9am to 12pm... so we have a choice of Mr Nanda's class or Ms Wong's class on Thursday and Friday...haha
You know what? The next day after our "holiday" is our STPM trials (paper set by Jabatan...each state sits for the exam paper set by the jabatan of each state)
hmmm, isn't the teachers of SMK SRI PANTAI so devoted? they sacrifice their holiday to help the students...LOL
That's not all...what's a school holiday without the package? the HOLIDAY HOMEWORK package la...
You see, a students life is all about studies, HOMEWORK, assignment and exams.
I guess the SYSTEM is really clever yah? A really brilliant idea to combine a few things together: Holiday, homework, extra class and big exams the next day after the holiday!
It's called training for the working life...so you gotta get used to being taken advantage of... isn't that called optimum? yeah la, use your "full potential", "bring out the best in you", super human aka machines...haha maximize the work done/end result/output at use minimum cost...don't want any waste...use everything...
I don't like drawing economy graphs, "keluk" to be more exact! Especially the MC cutting through AC's lowest point and when I have to draw AVC.I dislike the AC a lot cause MC always have to cut AC's minimum point and AVC has to start from far and ends close to AC. Yucks, it really takes me such a long time to get the intersection. I'm really lousy at these drawings! I cannot be a architect..haha
BTW: AC = Average Cost (Kos purata) AVC= Average Variable Cost (Kos Berubah Purata) MC = Marginal Cost (Kos Sut)
Onto a diff topic: Ya, today's assembly was quite weird... You know what? We celebrated the Head prefect's (Ismail Daud) birthday today...Whoa, this is the first time I've heard about a student's birthday celebrated in assembly! It was all the Principle's (Pn Hamidah) idea and Pn Hamidah also bought a secret recipe cake for Ismail Daud.
OK, now onto another subject: HISTORY My history teacher(Pn Maimon) gives us unexpected written "test" when she feels like it...quite rare la. This year twice already. Each time she gives us a "test", she doesn't care about it in the end--> she doesn't want it! So, I feel really discouraged in putting effort to memorize within the short period of time for this "test" as she doesn't really care about the end result! Some people feel relieved that she doesn't collect these "test"...But I feel like it's a waste of time, ink, paper and effort...I put effort in memorizing in those 5 minutes she gave us to refresh our minds before doing the "test"...I feel sad la... ;C
I feel like I'm lost, my school is crazy. We are talked to as though we are children and teachers teaches like as though we are children. Everyday during assembly, the students are instructed to "angkat tangan, jatuh tangan" like Tadika or primary school children. Our MUET(Malaysian University English Test) teacher teaches us like primary school students-->Repeat after me. these are the outer factors.
Now, onto the internal factor: today I witness a very childish reaction. In this incident, I feel quite ashamed of my good friend's behavior and in general my class's attitude. This friend of mine started calling someone horrible names just like a child. The other girl also exchange back horrible names. I really felt like I was back in Pre-School. I tell you it was really such a child-ish attitude.
I really wish I had the guts to tell this good friend of mine to not act that childish, but she was too emotional...
School is for studying la, people! Why do you all want to make school a battlefield? Both sides in wrong ok? Happy? Can you'll just call it a day and shake hands? You people are of the same faith, can you tolerate and forgive please?
Right now, "the class is much more 'CONDUCIVE' class to study!" claim many teachers since we redecorated and rearranged and "carpeted" our class. Little do they know of how NOT conducive our class is in on the inside. This enmity between the Malay girls of my class is really frustrating, causing stress and getting out of hand each day!
I feel so ashamed and sad that my class is in a gloomy and tensed atmosphere. There's also a lot of verbal fights and unnecessary rubbish going on. Again it makes me wonder and wonder the same thing I always do... Why do we come to school?
I really wanna shout out "HELLO FRIENDS, WE ARE PRE-UNIVERSITY STUDENTS, NOT CHILDREN OK? SO, PLEASE BEHAVE LIKE AN ADULT. WE'RE ALREADY 19 YEARS OLD!"
The class's rearrangement is now a horrible thing. A small thing ballooned up into a gigantic issue. In my class there is the minority gang and the majority gang. My class is made of 20 students The minority gang is made up of me, Pui Yee(2 Chinese girls), Praveen(1 Indian boy) and Hazizah(English speaking Malay girl) while the Majority gang is the rest of the class...but with some neutral parties.
In the new class sitting, nobody wanted to sit next to Hazizah...they Anti her. In my class there is cliques...about doubles mostly and some triples. Here's the list:
1. minority gang(4 people) 2. Syakirah and Nissa 3. Suraya and Zulaikha 4. Zuraini and Akhmar 5. Wani Noor, Wahidah and Eius 6. Hafizah and Farahin 7. Wisha and Roslina
Zuchal, Wani Azrin, Wani Wahab are free agents...
In the new arrangement, the majority gang is all in their cliques but the minority gang was purposely thrown separately to the 4 sides/ends of the class. This was done because the majority gang has been unsatisfied(tak puas hati with Hazizah since lower 6 already) so they want Hazizah to be alone. They don't want Hazizah to sit in front nor do they don't want Hazizah to sit with Pui Yee or any of the minority, and the majority don't want to sit next to her. This unsatisfied feeling was that Hazizah didn't really mix with the other Malays so they think she's snobbish. Besides that, Hazizah was originally from the next class last year but in the middle of the year 2008 she transferred into my class...A certain someone was supposedly 3rd in class went down to 4th due to Hazizah getting 3rd in class.
And so, this new arrangement brought a lot of dissatisfaction...then the fight begins...so kecoh.... verbal fights, tears, complains, teachers, "secret meetings", and a whole new gloomy atmosphere. Very tensed up aura and vibes, negative feelings all around class. The situation is tensed up in class.
A racist remark: "Takkan semata-mata minoriti(Cina), kita nak tukar tempat. Kita orang dah selesa dah. Kita majoriti, mereka minoriti. Biarlah!"
very ugly i tell u... both sides also don't want to give up... today the teacher said to the majority gang to just give in...then Hazizah pulak was rude and action action....now everyone also panas. The thing was cooled down for 1 minute then Hazizah go and stir up the heat again. both sides in fault... nobody wants to admit they are wrong.
I find it a bit funny, they all(majority) don't want to separate with their friends but it's okay to separate the minority. To them, It's okay to separate Pui Yee from her best friend(Hazizah). I can't understand their double standards. Can they even listen to their own self? haiz, discrimination!
Oh my, why la? so kecoh you know! Please lah! right now I'm kind of atas pagar...neutral... I don't really care la about the position, lazy want to argue... Me and Praveen don't really mind where we sit lah. It makes me wonder once again, why do we come to school for? Seating Arrangements? LOL. Neways, I think this is also from the STPM stress la.
Upper 6 Effective class carpeted their floor and rearranged their table so now must take off shoes to enter their class. Now, my class wants to copy...haiz. This is so childish la. Since the lower 6 years, the 2 classes compete and copy the class arrangement. When one class makes a change in the class, the other class will follow and try to stand up more...Rivalry that is in vain, useless.
I seriously don't see any difference or what's the point between the cemented floor and the carpeted/wall paper-ed floor for my class. What's the use of it? When I inquired the class of why they are doing this, they answered that our class teacher was lamenting on how her previous class(last year or so) always won the cleanest class award every week so much so that other teachers wanted to ban her class from competing.
We also collected RM2 from each person just to buy a baju for our class teacher. When I asked why are we doing this, they said because our class teacher was complaining that we never gave her any present...Haiz!
I wonder, do we go to school to study or please teachers or hear teacher's complains? Why is her acceptance so important? This teacher like to threathen students with mild curses..."Kalau tak bla bla bla, tak berkat" Not like I really care la... But you know something I realised? I don't know if this goes to all Malays or it's just my school la. The Malays like to merajuk very fast, get angry and hurt easily, and they always mild curse people. The worse attribute is their jealousy...it's super strong I tell you! When I confronted them about the mild cursings, the answer given was "Kita orang mahu beri galakkan...bukan curse. Reverse psychology"
But still, the way they give the "galakan" is by pouring down bad words and cursing. When something is lost or when they get angry, my, my, you should cover your ears...all the foul words will come out of their mouth and heavy horrible curses will be shouted out...and I'm not talking about my form only-->this goes to all the Malays from different forms that I met in SMK Seri Pantai. It's the same reaction...maybe it's the Malay culture. Hmmm. Actually, maybe all races also do this cursing, maybe...but not as obvious as this la, and not as frequent and easily poured out like this la.
If you don't respond the way they want you to respond...some of them will get angry and hurt and start to merajuk with that merajuk sentences and then the angry voice will come and next would be cursing and soon to threatening...Then their friends would say they're joking...but their voice and vibe says the opposite. I get a bit scared I tell you, a bit worried too. These type of people are potential abusers...Imagine if alcohol is added with these kind of attitude...I won't be surprised if these violent people actually kill people.
Saya terdengar khabar angin bahawa cikgu sudah mula bertegas dalam pentadbiran pengawas sekolah namun cikgu tidak mengambil sebarang tindakan terhadap pengawas tersebut. Syabas dan kerja yang bagus tetapi cikgu hanya mengambil kira perkara yang lebih besar; cikgu menutup sebelah mata dalam menangani perkara yang kecil.
Perkara yang kecillah yang banyak membentuk/ mempengaruhi/ menyumbang kepada disiplin dan akhlak seseorang. Antara buku yang membuktikan penyataan tersebut ialah ‘The Pencil’ dan ‘The Pearl’ serta ‘Konserto Terakhir’. Selalunya pengalaman dan kejadian terutamanya perkara yang dianggap remehlah yang telah membentuk perwatakan seseorang itu.
Jangan pandang rendahakan perkara yang kelihatan tidak penting atau serius. Penjenayah, penagih dadah , pembunuh, pelajar bermasalah. Semua perwatakan ini terbentuk daripada kejadian yang dianggap kurang serius tetapi hakikatnya ia amat serius dan merupakan “the turning point of their life”.
Isu kasut di Burma telah mencetuskan semangat nasiolisme. Saya yakin dan sangat pasti bahawa dari sudut pandangan orang Inggeris, mereka menganggap isu ini sebagai sesuatu hal yang tidak penting malah ia merupakan sesuatu yang tidak mempunyai “any significance”. Tetapi bagi orang Burma, kejadian inilah yang telah membawa perubahan dalam sejarah dunia.
Saya yakin cikgu pernah mendengar pepatah ini; ‘Siakap senohong gelama ikan duri, bercakap bohong lama-lama mencuri.’ Pepatah ini membuktikan perkara yang kelihatan “harmless”, lama-lama akan menjadi sesuatu yang sangat serius.
Pengawas itu telah diskriminasikan pelajar minority serta imej pengawas serta sekolah turut rosak atau dipandang rendah di mata sekolah.
Apa gunanya peraturan dan undang-undang jika pihak berkuasa tidak menguatkuasakannya?
Jika cikgu tidak mengenakan sebarang amaran, tindakan atau hukuman terhadapnya, ini secara tidak langsung akan:
*menghantar mesej bahawa perbuatannya tidak salah tetapi okay.
*Perkara ini juga bagai limau masam sebelah
*Hal seperti ini membawa kepada pembentukan diskriminasi; akan wujud pemikiran bahawa pengawas merupakan pelajar ‘kelas pertama’ manakala pelajar lain tergolong sebagai “second class students”.
Pengawas boleh buat apa-apa sahaja termasuk menyalahgunakan kuasa serta mereka tidak perlu hormat kepada pelajar senior. Pelajar–pelajar terpaksa ‘mengikut telunjuk’
-untuk pengetahuaan cikgu, perkara ini juga merupakan salah satu bentuk buli atau ‘ragging’
Perbuatan cikgu juga akan mewujudkan pemikiran bahawa seorang pengawas akan mempunyai ‘lesen’ atau ‘kelonggaran’ dan bebas untuk melakukan perkara, perbuatan dan pertuturan yang tidak patut dilakukan.
Sekali gus cikgu melahirkan pelajar dan pengawas yang “corrupted”, rosak akhlak, imej, keterampilan, moral, budaya, sikap, atitud dan pelajar yang laksana bunga dedap, sungguh merah berbau tidak.
Perkara ini juga bercanggah dengan piagam sekolah, visi sekolah, matlamat sekolah, falsafah sekolah dan moto sekolah ini! Perkara sebegini akan mewujudkan rasa tidak puas hati warga sekolah malah ini akan membawa kepada kes-kes disiplin yang bagaikan cendawan tumbuh selepas hujan.
Jika iniberlaku, saya mahu cikgu tahu bahawa secara tidak langsung, cikgulah yang akan menjadi punca utama terbentuk orang yang tidak bertanggungjawab atau tidak bergunadalam negara kita.
Cikgu-cikgu seperti itulah bagaikan pihak yang tidak melaksanakan amanahnya dan hanya makan gaji buta serta menyumbang kepada kemunduran negara kita.
Oleh itu, saya berharap bahawa cikgu akan menggetus tunasnya, sebelum ia menjadi pucuk terlebih dahulu. Bak kata meluntur buluh, biarlah dari rebungnya.
Aduan berkenaan Pengawas yang telah mendiskriminasikan saya.
Berhubung perkara di atas, saya Hew Mun Foong, seorang pelajar daripada tingkatan 6 Atas Aspirasi, Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Seri Pantai ingin membuat aduan tentang seorang pengawas lelaki. Pengawas tersebut telah mendiskriminasi saya. Perkara ini telah menginggung perasaan saya dan menjatuhkan maruah saya, malah pengawas ini telah melanggar peraturan sekolah juga.
2.Pengawas tersebut telah mendiskriminasi saya sewaktu perhimpunan pada 6 Januari 2009, Selasa. Pengawas ini menganggap perkara ini remeh dan belum meminta maafkepada saya. Walaupun dia seorang pengawas dia tidak sepatutnya mendiskriminasi seorang pelajar ataupun seorang ‘senior’.
3.Saya telah memeriksa BUKU PERATURAN DISIPLIN SEKOLAH MENENGAH WILAYAH PERSEKUTUAN KUALA LUMPUR dari JABATAN PENDIDIKAN WILAYAH PERSEKUTUAN KUALA LUMPUR, edisi Bahasa Melayu, cetakan 2003. ISSN 1675-7866
1)Education-Disiplin1. Judul 375
BAHAGIAN PENAMPILAN DAN KEKEMASAN DIRI
9.0 Tingkah laku murid yang dilarang di sekolah
9.1 Tingkah laku biadap
9.4 Tingkah laku Jenayah/ salah laku Berat.
9.4.12menimbulkan isu sensitif yang boleh menimbulkan kacau-bilau
Ini merupakan kesalahan berat (B)
Kod
Jenis Kesalahan
Hukuman
B 06
Biadap dan tingkah laku tidak sopan
1.Amaran keras
2.Dirotan 1-3 kali di punggung berlapik dengan menggunakan rotan
ringan
4.Digantung persekolahan tidak melebihi14 hari
5.Dibuang sekolah
6.Makhamah
4.Dia juga boleh didakwa menurut AKTA PERLINDUNGAN KANAK-KANAK 1991, PINDAAN 2001.
Penderaan mental; perbuatan menjatuhkan maruah seperti dihina.
5.Oleh kerana saya tidak mahu memperbesarkan hal ini,saya cuma mahu pengawas tersebut meminta maafdaripada saya dengan ikhlas. Saya meminta jasa baik cikgu supaya dapat menyelesaikan masalah ini dengan segera.Saya juga berharap perkara sebegini tidak akan diulangi oleh mana-mana pengawas.Diharapkan cikgu juga tidak akan menganggap hal ini dengan kurang penting. Kerjasama dan perhatian cikgu terlebih dahulu saya ucapkan berbanyak-banyak terima kasih.
Just another Form 6 student aka pre-University student aka STPM 2009 student.
Frustrated with my school, Can you blame me?
Who am I? Am I who I think I am Or Am I who PEOPLE think I am? It doesn't really matter cause I can CHANGE!
